Contentment in hair loss

The bulk of this post is just a continuation of some personal thoughts I had while sitting along a rail line in Abbotsford concerning some circumstances in my life right now. Sometimes I think my best thinking happens when I'm alone beside a train track:

I have to learn to be content. That is one thing I have been called to. That doesn't necessarily mean I have to be (or am expected to be, or that I should always be) happy. The Christian faith doesn't automatically bring with it earthly happiness, I don't think. Paul encouraged Timothy to be content. What is contentment? I think contentment is just being able to, in all situations, understand and know that God has everything under control. One of the doctrinal statements of our church is that God is so in control of everything that not even a hair can fall fom our heads without the will of our Father in Heaven. In my human mind, that concept is incomprehensible. Does God really care about a single hair on my head? Biblically, He knows how many hairs are on my head, so I guess in a way he's keeping track. But does he will a receding hairline? I don't know.

What I do know is that He does work out all things for the good of those who put their trust in Him. Is that 'good' judged by human standards? Of course not. If it were, nobody would ever die, cancer would not exist, families would not break apart, relationships wouldn't end. No, the 'good' is based on God's wisdom. God knows what is good for His children a lot better than we think we do. And that's one of the best and worst aspects of the true Christian life. In all things, we are called to trust GOd's wisdom. Even through the crap, the loneliness, the loss...God calls us to trust. That's not an easy thing to do. Trusting in the unknown is not easy. But my limited understanding of God tells me that He understands. He understanes why we'd rather do it our own way. He understands why we would turn our backs on Him. He understands that His 'good' is not the same as ours, but He's gonna teach us that it is even better than the best 'good' we can aim for on our own strength. Our call, my call even now, is to trust that all things happen for a purpose. There's no chance, there's no coincidence. Mabye God wants some of us to be bald and so He actually is willing to let those hairs fall out of our head. I'm not going bald, by the way, it's just an analogy. I don't know.

Yeah, I wish things would work out the way I want them to. I wish my 'good' was good enough for God. I wish I could understand even now the purposes in the seemingly random and unfortunate events that take place in life. Then again, maybe life would be boring. If everything that I wanted in life, that I thought was good came into being, I think I'd be bored. And I would probably think that I don't need God because everything I want is provided. The joy in living a true Christian life, once realized, is that we aren't given everything we want. But God does provide for our needs, and for me, for the most part, that's good enough.